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來自印尼的 Nadya教院童跳踢踏舞和印尼的敬拜舞蹈-千手之舞

直到昨晚，也就是我離開屏東的31位孩子的兩天後，我仍然能記得每一件他們所做的事、每一個小細節。

我可以即興哼出他們唱過的「新好男孩」或是「 王老 先生有塊地」的歌詞。

我可以感覺到他們的踢踏舞步還像鼓聲擊打在我的腦海。

我可以聽見他們的笑聲迴盪在我耳畔。

我可以將那些都從記憶中移去。

三週前，我和我的團隊從台灣屏東的信望愛育幼院開始了這次的活動。這是我第一次到台灣，也是第一次參加志工活動。在見到他們之前，我預期會看見一群不討喜、害羞、又缺乏活力的孩子，沒想到那些設想的畫面完全消失在我們第一次相見歡的遊戲中。他們竟是一群活潑、充滿力量和歡笑聲的孩子。身為一個外國人，我對他們一無所知，也不清楚他們的背景或相關的議題，我只知道在三週裡我們需要24小時共處。

照著他們的作息時間，從早上6點20分開始集合用早餐，9點到11點上課，12點吃午餐，午睡到3點，然後7點吃晚餐，9點才回到自己房間。所有行程都固定好而且很準確地執行。起初，我非常地驚訝，畢竟連我自己都不會這麼早起吃早餐，也無法這麼早睡，剛開始的三天對我來說是最困難的挑戰，我聽不懂大家的對話，當他們大笑時，我只能呆站著，一點也不明白他們在笑什麼。即使被取笑的是我，我可能也不知道。我想知道他們在說什麼，即使小孩們只是在喃喃自語，我也很好奇。我想參與並分享他們的笑聲，這樣也可以隨著有趣的事物或愚蠢的笑話跟著開心。

我對所有事物的好奇心帶領我進入他們的世界。我們這群外國人，試著進入他們孤立起來的世界。起初，只是我自己對在另一個國家生活、學習不同的習俗感到好奇而來到台灣，但既然我現在認識了他們，我想愛他們並分享我所有的，希望可以滿足他們的需要。我也很好奇孩子們如何用歡笑和喜悅來掩蓋苦痛。我從來不知道他們的故事，或是在故事背後地掙扎。

志工們教他們用藝術表現創造力，像是摺紙、畫畫、著色，以及唱歌、跳舞、甚至是演戲，他們都有驚人的創造力。我們剛抵達時，看見他們練習舞蹈的樣子十分出色！我不清楚在鄉下是如何學會這些舞步，但想必他們是不會屈服於自己所受的限制。我們也和孩子們打籃球，但每次總是慘敗在他們手下。玩其他遊戲時，他們也總能輕易擊敗我們之後，又活力充沛地繼續挑戰單輪車或是在廣場上奔跑。我們期待打開他們的視野，所以也教他們跳踢踏舞和千手之舞（一種源自印尼的敬拜舞蹈）。

我們試著表現新穎的事物讓他們學習拓展自己，並在歡送會表演給我們看。歡送會實在是很感傷的一刻，在表演過所有我們教的舞蹈和歌曲，包括 王老 先生有塊地、踢踏舞、千手之舞、他們自己的戲劇、模仿表演新好男孩樂團…等等；我感到很傷感，難以想像隔天就要分開了。三個星期我們教的，他們也都學會了，真的每一件工作都做得非常好，我想也許將來他們的進步成長，我再也沒有機會看見了。

我記得當第二批孩子回家時，留下的可愛話語深深地打動了現場所有的人。我記得有個孩子，可以模仿所有我教他的舞蹈動作，結果變成其中最會跳舞的；還記得最後幾天因為我不能吃豬肉，廚房特別為我準備超大盤蔬菜麵…；我永遠也忘不了，在歡送會唱完告別的歌曲後孩子們的眼淚；以及當我們隔天準備返回台北時，他們在門口揮著手說再見的樣子，慢慢消失在視線裡，然而，在我心中他們永遠不會消失…。

Nadya Paramytha

Until last night, two days after i left 31 kids in Pingdong, i still can remember everything single thing they did even in small details.

I can adlibing every words  as they sang Backstreet Boys song and Old McDonald song.

I can feel them tapping in my head like a drumbeat as they danced the tap dance.

I can hear their laughters echo in my ears.

I can remove all of that from my memory.

Three weeks ago, me and my team started this project in Faith Hope Love Children Home in Ping Dong, Taiwan. This is my first experience visiting Taiwan and do this volunteer work. Before i met them, i imagined about unattractive, shy, not energetic kids. Those pictures ruined in the very first time we played the game to know each other. They were so powerfull energetic and lots of laughters. Me, as foreigner knew nothing about them, about their background and things related to that issue. All i know is i have to be with them 24 hours in three weeks. We stick to their schedule from 6.20 in the morning gather around for breakfast, courses at 9 to 11, lunch at 12, take a nap until 3, dinner at 7, and go back to our room at 9. every schedule is fixed and sharp right on time. I really shocked about this at the very first time, i can’t even have my breakfast so early in the morning, and i can’t sleep early either. The first three days was the hardest part and devastated for me. I can’t even understand what they were talking about. When they were laughing i just freeze and have no idea what were they laughing at, and it might be me.

I want to know what they’re talking about, even the little kid just mumbling things that they can even barely understand it, im curious about it.

I want to join and share every laughter they had so i can laugh at hilarious things or even silly jokes they made.

My curiousity about everything about them lead me to enter their world. The world of their own that was isolated from outsider and we, the foreigners, tried to getting into it. At the very beginning it was only my curiousity about live in another country and learn different custom of living took me to Taiwan. But now since i know them, i want to love them and shared what i had to them, hopefully can fulfill their needs.

My curiousity about how they can covered their pain with laughter and joy. I never knew before about their stories and how they can struggle with the stories behind it.

We taught them how to be creative with art such as paper folding, drawing, painting, singing, dancing, and even acting.  They were amazingly creative. Right when we just arrived, they just praticed their breakdance and they got their style! I don’t know where they learn that moves since they are in a county but it must be because they had lots of limitation but they don’t want to trapped in that situation. We also played basketball with them and they beat us everytime. In other games they can beat us easily and after that they still had energies to play another things like one wheel bike or just running all around the playground. We tried to open their horizon with taught them dances like tap dance and Saman, Indonesian traditional dance from Aceh. We tried to show them new things that they can learn improved themselves and they have to show us at the farewell party. The emotional part was the farewell thing. After amused the audience by showed all the things we taught them from sang Old McDonald, performed both Tap and Saman Dance, their own drama, and imitating former well known boyband, Backstreet Boys, i felt so sad and hard to leave them in the next day. The fact that they can catch what we taught them for almost three weeks, the fact that they did very great job in every single thing, and the most, the fact that i can’t see them improved their knowledge because i will leave them and may not see each other for the rest of my life.

I remember when the second batch kids were leaving for their home and left a cute message which totally touched everyone’s heart there. I remember the kid who can imitate every dancing moves that i taught them and he become the best dancer among the others. I keep remember meals that i got in last couple days which is special made because i can’t eat pork and the chef made it for me super big plate of veggie noddle. And i won’t never ever forget when they were crying after sang the goodbye song at the farewell party and the next day they waved goodbye in front of the door then saw them as small kids which finally faded as our way go back to Taipei. But here, in my heart they never fade away, they just stayed.